Behind the highlight reel
I was a communications student at Baylor when a car wreck took my leg and killed a friend of mine. I went on to earn my master's in counseling.
I ended up in LA working as an actor and a stunt double. Well, a STUMP double. Productions used my amputated stump in body double roles. NCIS, ER, and Superbad, among others. People Magazine, USA Today, and Access Hollywood came next.
What seemed like the peak of my career was an invitation to the Playboy Mansion with A-listers like Adam Sandler, Bruce Willis, and Emma Stone.
Not long after, I found my brother Matt, my best friend, dead from a drug overdose in his Beverly Hills home.
I went to work for Dave Ramsey. I invented a sports product that changed track and field on a global level. Behind the scenes, I was struggling with severe mental illness and substance use disorder.
After Dave Ramsey fired me himself, I ended up in eleven different treatment programs. Every time, I was trying to get better for someone else. The job, the marriage, the kids, the image. I went from parties at the Playboy Mansion to living in a mold-infested double-wide trailer on the banks of a river.
I got sober for a while. I went on to host a podcast about addiction, won multiple public speaking awards, and made the cover of Toastmaster Magazine.
Then I relapsed again and hit rock bottom. I was alone in an apartment, not sure I wanted to see morning.
A friend of mine came over, saw the shape I was in, and reminded me that everybody loves a comeback story. Then he asked me one question. What is one thing you can do today to start yours?
What I needed was to make a phone call. My hands were shaking when I picked up that thousand pound phone and said I needed real help. For years I believed a sentence like that would kill me. That if anyone saw how far I had fallen, that would be the end. Everything I built to look fine.
It did not kill me. For the first time I did it for me, and I let God be the director of my life. I call it my near life experience. The moment I was sure would kill me was the moment I finally started living.